Happy Friday

Another week in the books.

I’m grateful for my role at IN TRUTH, where my team and I are trying to build tools that help people understand and regulate their emotional health. It’s been an insightful experience as a user of our tech on his own journey of healing, understanding and growing.

Emotional health is heavy with topics and I will write future posts on these topics and about how my work has been helping me with my own self-development, mental health and wellbeing. But this post is to cap off a great week and to reflect on the highs and lows.

The Lows

1. My physical health hasn’t been so great. At age 36 I suspect the choices and lifestyle of my twenties are realizing consequences today. I have several upcoming medical appointments where I hope I’ll have answers and a full picture of my health for the first time in my life.
2. Comparison is the thief of joy but this week I had a couple of moments of pause where it occurred to me that I likely won’t experience what it would be like to be a father and a husband. In both moments I did tear up as I tried to resume whatever I was working on in that moment. I lapsed and during my vulnerability my mind wandered and I began to think about my peers. I had to go for a walk to clear my head in the end. That was a tough day.

The Highs

1. In light of my current health issues I will keep fighting and whether the picture of my health is good or bad, at least I’ll have a view of my health for the first time in my life, and some data to improve my health from there. My time is indeed limited and I realize I need to do better with my health first if I’m going to achieve any of my other goals.
2. While drinking my tea this morning I had a moment of realization at how far I’ve come as a programmer and that I’m proud of myself.
3. As I cap off another week of work, I am grateful for my family and content with what I have in life.

Take care and be kind to yourself ❤️